No, I just decided to clean my room.
It always gets worse before it gets anywhere near better. I'm gonna post this really quick, so I can finish up on laptop stuff for a while and tidy some more before I got to bed.
Hah, there's junk of my floor, on the ladder to my bed, over my desk, on my cupboards...and that's just the stuff that I'm tidying now.
After sorting out my junk, I have to sort out other stuff, like reorganise my books and sort out clothes and jewelry and all kinds of stuff.
Sam.
Oh yes, hopefully I will be getting a tablet soon, and possibly a webcam as well. If I get a webcam, I will most likely attempt to make videos that are made of mostly fail, I should imagine.
I want a video camera :(
Or at the very least a decent camera.
Signing off again.
Sam.
Saturday, 30 May 2009
Friday, 29 May 2009
Death Note, Apple, Tablets and Nose Pressure
First order of business.
Went to Simons with Alex and Megan today. It was pretty awesome. We watched a Death Note movie in Japanese with English subtitles. It was really good, and true to the manga, which I liked. The only issue is that dramatic anime/manga shots don't work too well in live action movies, and some of the camera work was a little dodgy. But the acting was good, the render of Ryuk was amazing and for a live action film of a manga, it was pretty damn awesome.
Second.
Apple. Gah! Simon has and Apple Mac of awesome and I want it. But I am poor and have no room in my room for such a thing, so. I will have to remain in jealous awe until I move out. Which won't be for a while.
Third.
Tablets. Graphics ones. I have a link to where I can buy one on Amazon, so I will hopefully get one before the summer holidays. I think I can manage that.
Nose pressure. For some reason there is pressure in my nose that is not nice. It's most likely my sinuses again, since I just had a cold recently.
Moooving on. I also need a new actual camera and a webcam or a video camera. All three would be nice.
Ah yes. I also ordered my free proof copy from CreateSpace today. Yay! It'll be here by, like, June 26. Dammit, I wanted to have time to buy an actual copy for a certain someone by June freaking 7th. Damn you international shipping.
Also damn my lack of a debit card of any kind. I need to buy more books and CDs and order tablets from Amazon but I CANT because I lack any means of internet banking other than just looking at the pretty numbers on my online bank account. MADE OF SUCK AND FAIL.
Tomorrow I will be thoroughly cleaning my room. And I mean thoroughly. That means getting a huge bag or box, and putting all my old junk that I don't want in it, and giving it to charity, because it's the kind of junk that ebay will NEVER WANT. Ever.
So yeah. That's what's going on with me at the moment.
Sam.
Went to Simons with Alex and Megan today. It was pretty awesome. We watched a Death Note movie in Japanese with English subtitles. It was really good, and true to the manga, which I liked. The only issue is that dramatic anime/manga shots don't work too well in live action movies, and some of the camera work was a little dodgy. But the acting was good, the render of Ryuk was amazing and for a live action film of a manga, it was pretty damn awesome.
Second.
Apple. Gah! Simon has and Apple Mac of awesome and I want it. But I am poor and have no room in my room for such a thing, so. I will have to remain in jealous awe until I move out. Which won't be for a while.
Third.
Tablets. Graphics ones. I have a link to where I can buy one on Amazon, so I will hopefully get one before the summer holidays. I think I can manage that.
Nose pressure. For some reason there is pressure in my nose that is not nice. It's most likely my sinuses again, since I just had a cold recently.
Moooving on. I also need a new actual camera and a webcam or a video camera. All three would be nice.
Ah yes. I also ordered my free proof copy from CreateSpace today. Yay! It'll be here by, like, June 26. Dammit, I wanted to have time to buy an actual copy for a certain someone by June freaking 7th. Damn you international shipping.
Also damn my lack of a debit card of any kind. I need to buy more books and CDs and order tablets from Amazon but I CANT because I lack any means of internet banking other than just looking at the pretty numbers on my online bank account. MADE OF SUCK AND FAIL.
Tomorrow I will be thoroughly cleaning my room. And I mean thoroughly. That means getting a huge bag or box, and putting all my old junk that I don't want in it, and giving it to charity, because it's the kind of junk that ebay will NEVER WANT. Ever.
So yeah. That's what's going on with me at the moment.
Sam.
Thursday, 28 May 2009
Ooooops
Have you ever just grabbed a drink from the fridge, drunk half of it and THEN looked at the label? No? Yes? Well, I just did. Major oops, cause what I thought was D&B light was ACTUALLY Ben Shaws Bitter Shandy.
Instead of a fizzy drink slightly healthier than coke, I drank a can of part alcoholic beverageness. Fail. So what did I do? I drank the rest of it - hey, I like shandy! Then I realised that I couldn't exactly leave the can in my room like I usually do, or throw it in my bin - someone would realise and I'd get told off.
So, in all my wisdom I...threw the can out of the window. I aimed for some bushes but it hit the roof of my dads car and bounced off. Total OHSHIT moment. So, I went down and, under the pretense of throwing away the papers that hadn't been delivered, managed to pick it up and put in the bin that will collected either tonight or tomorrow.
PERFECT CRIME!
Hopefully my mum won't notice that there's one less can of her shandy in the fridge....O.o
Sam.
I AM NOT DRUNK, by the way. DONT SAY A WORD
Instead of a fizzy drink slightly healthier than coke, I drank a can of part alcoholic beverageness. Fail. So what did I do? I drank the rest of it - hey, I like shandy! Then I realised that I couldn't exactly leave the can in my room like I usually do, or throw it in my bin - someone would realise and I'd get told off.
So, in all my wisdom I...threw the can out of the window. I aimed for some bushes but it hit the roof of my dads car and bounced off. Total OHSHIT moment. So, I went down and, under the pretense of throwing away the papers that hadn't been delivered, managed to pick it up and put in the bin that will collected either tonight or tomorrow.
PERFECT CRIME!
Hopefully my mum won't notice that there's one less can of her shandy in the fridge....O.o
Sam.
I AM NOT DRUNK, by the way. DONT SAY A WORD
What I want to be
I was making an image for the book cover for my novel, Mirror Mirror the other day. I could have just picked a generic one from CreateSpace's list, but I wanted one that reflected my book a bit more (the pun was unintentional, I swear!)
Whilst I was doing that, and swearing at my laptop because I kept doing it wrong, I realised something. Goddamit making book covers is fun! That made me think about what I want to potentially do for a job. For the longest time I've been making vague allusions about what I maybe want to be. I want to be a writer - possible, but not a certainty or the most stable of careers. I want to be an artist - again, not the most certain job or most stable career ever. And there are so many things that you can do and be an artist.
That was why making book covers made me think about that. I want to do that for a job. I want to be able to make covers for peoples books for a living. I mean, it kinda combines my two loves - books and art. Plus, I'd probably get to read parts of new books, too ;)
Do you think that's a possible career goal for me? I mean it's either that or fail miserably at being an author/artist and work at Tesco.
I've been really thinking about it and it's something I definitely want to consider doing as an actual job. I just need to research it and find out how to break into that career line. What do you guys think? Should I go for it? I want to. I think it's something I could be good at and have fun doing. I have an article about cover design somewhere, I need to dig that out and read it.
Sam.
Whilst I was doing that, and swearing at my laptop because I kept doing it wrong, I realised something. Goddamit making book covers is fun! That made me think about what I want to potentially do for a job. For the longest time I've been making vague allusions about what I maybe want to be. I want to be a writer - possible, but not a certainty or the most stable of careers. I want to be an artist - again, not the most certain job or most stable career ever. And there are so many things that you can do and be an artist.
That was why making book covers made me think about that. I want to do that for a job. I want to be able to make covers for peoples books for a living. I mean, it kinda combines my two loves - books and art. Plus, I'd probably get to read parts of new books, too ;)
Do you think that's a possible career goal for me? I mean it's either that or fail miserably at being an author/artist and work at Tesco.
I've been really thinking about it and it's something I definitely want to consider doing as an actual job. I just need to research it and find out how to break into that career line. What do you guys think? Should I go for it? I want to. I think it's something I could be good at and have fun doing. I have an article about cover design somewhere, I need to dig that out and read it.
Sam.
Favourite Books
Favourites. In about me sections on profile pages they always have them. Favourite books, movies, music....yadda yadda yadda.
For some reason in favourite books I always put something like this:
Maximum Ride, Skulduggery Pleasant, Vampire Chronicles, Twilight series, Demonata, Stephen King & more!
Why do I do that? There are books I love that never get on there. It's like I'm trying to be pretentious and impress people (again with that. Why do I do that so much?)
I should put:
The redemption of althalus, The man with the golden torc, i lucifer, Skulduggery Pleasant, Maximum Ride, Demonata, Stephen King & more!
See, Twilight shouldn't be on there. Don't get me wrong, I think it's an okay series, and I own all the books and I admit, for a time, I was as fangirlish as they come, only minus the undying love for the male leads. But why do I keep listing it when I only read it because it's easy to read? It's like...the Disney Channel of books. The series is written in an okay style, and it's easy to read, like I said. But when you look closely it's easy to pick holes in. If you've ever seen a Disney Channel show, you'll understand my analysis.
Moving on. I don't get why I don't list books that I've read and loved time and again at the top of my list. The Redemption of Althalus for example. I've read that book about four times now, which is impressive, considering how long it is. The book is practically nothing more than one long conversation - hardly a page goes by without a long speech. But despite that, I love it to bits. THe characters are real, with flaws and wonderful personalities. The relationship bewtween Althalus the theif and Dweia the Goddess for example? Perfect. Their conversations and interactions are amazing and loving without having to cross into the 'I love you, now let's make out for the readers' type of relationship. God, I love that book.
Another one - i, lucifer. It's a novel about the devil getting a shot at redemption by taking over the body of a human about to commit suicide. It's told in the first person. I've read it two/three times and I still think it's one of the best books I've read. It takes a concept that's been done - god and the devil - and re-does it in a way that makes you like the devil as a main character, but doesn't make him the sexylicious bad boy that really wants to be good. The body he takes over is NOT the winner of a beauty contest. He's utterly imperfect. The devil spends the whole book making a book and then a movie about his life story, drinking, taking drugs and having sex. He acts like you would expect lucifer to - like an utter bastard, but a slightly charming bastard. He's the guy you can so easily hate, but he'd only like you all the more. It's an amazing book, but I never list it on my favourites. I should. I really, really should.
Then there's The Man With The Golden Torc. I've read that book three times, and I've read the sequel and I really want to read the third book. It's another 'modern fantasy book'. It combines James Bond-esque secret agents with fantasy and secret societies and conspiracy theories and then tosses in every creature under the sun. It's told in the first person, and has so many awesome jokes that you can laugh at every single time. Eddied Drood - the hero - is amazing. He just wants to do what's right and doesn't want to kill or hurt anyone who doesn't have to be. Simon Greens characterisation of him is superb. And it's another book with a great relationship in it. Eddie and his enemy-turned-lover Molly Metcalf. In the first book they get together at the end. They never saw it coming, though everyone else did. The way they realised they cared about each other was so cool.
There, that's three book summaries. But why do I never seem to list these books? Maybe because I'm lazy, and the original ones I listed are on the bookshelves to the front and side of me. I dunno. I just wanted to blog this, I guess.
Sam.
For some reason in favourite books I always put something like this:
Maximum Ride, Skulduggery Pleasant, Vampire Chronicles, Twilight series, Demonata, Stephen King & more!
Why do I do that? There are books I love that never get on there. It's like I'm trying to be pretentious and impress people (again with that. Why do I do that so much?)
I should put:
The redemption of althalus, The man with the golden torc, i lucifer, Skulduggery Pleasant, Maximum Ride, Demonata, Stephen King & more!
See, Twilight shouldn't be on there. Don't get me wrong, I think it's an okay series, and I own all the books and I admit, for a time, I was as fangirlish as they come, only minus the undying love for the male leads. But why do I keep listing it when I only read it because it's easy to read? It's like...the Disney Channel of books. The series is written in an okay style, and it's easy to read, like I said. But when you look closely it's easy to pick holes in. If you've ever seen a Disney Channel show, you'll understand my analysis.
Moving on. I don't get why I don't list books that I've read and loved time and again at the top of my list. The Redemption of Althalus for example. I've read that book about four times now, which is impressive, considering how long it is. The book is practically nothing more than one long conversation - hardly a page goes by without a long speech. But despite that, I love it to bits. THe characters are real, with flaws and wonderful personalities. The relationship bewtween Althalus the theif and Dweia the Goddess for example? Perfect. Their conversations and interactions are amazing and loving without having to cross into the 'I love you, now let's make out for the readers' type of relationship. God, I love that book.
Another one - i, lucifer. It's a novel about the devil getting a shot at redemption by taking over the body of a human about to commit suicide. It's told in the first person. I've read it two/three times and I still think it's one of the best books I've read. It takes a concept that's been done - god and the devil - and re-does it in a way that makes you like the devil as a main character, but doesn't make him the sexylicious bad boy that really wants to be good. The body he takes over is NOT the winner of a beauty contest. He's utterly imperfect. The devil spends the whole book making a book and then a movie about his life story, drinking, taking drugs and having sex. He acts like you would expect lucifer to - like an utter bastard, but a slightly charming bastard. He's the guy you can so easily hate, but he'd only like you all the more. It's an amazing book, but I never list it on my favourites. I should. I really, really should.
Then there's The Man With The Golden Torc. I've read that book three times, and I've read the sequel and I really want to read the third book. It's another 'modern fantasy book'. It combines James Bond-esque secret agents with fantasy and secret societies and conspiracy theories and then tosses in every creature under the sun. It's told in the first person, and has so many awesome jokes that you can laugh at every single time. Eddied Drood - the hero - is amazing. He just wants to do what's right and doesn't want to kill or hurt anyone who doesn't have to be. Simon Greens characterisation of him is superb. And it's another book with a great relationship in it. Eddie and his enemy-turned-lover Molly Metcalf. In the first book they get together at the end. They never saw it coming, though everyone else did. The way they realised they cared about each other was so cool.
There, that's three book summaries. But why do I never seem to list these books? Maybe because I'm lazy, and the original ones I listed are on the bookshelves to the front and side of me. I dunno. I just wanted to blog this, I guess.
Sam.
It's a new day, it's a new plan
Okay, guys. Hi. I guess I need to actually comment a bunch of people and tell them I've moved.
I never thought I'd do it - actually make a whole new blog for myself. I always said that I'd stay in the same place, leave all the new and old, good and bad together. Just so I could look back and see how much I'd changed. But I can't. I haven't been posting at all recently, though I've had plenty of oppurtunity to. Now that I am, I can feel how easy it is to do so.
Hi Levi, if you're reading this. So far you're the only person I've given the address to. Simply because I was checking your blog whilst I was making my new one.
I don't know what things'll be like here. Probably the same.
Oh yes, I also deleted my writing blog and the BOA one. Because I can't even update one blog, let alone three.
Well, this is a first post, and if anyone comes here then they might be reading this without ever having read the old blog, so, I guess I'll introduce myself for those people.
My pen name is Luci de Monica, my real name is Sam.
I'm fifteen
I'm female (omigod no way, right? No girls on the internet and all that)
I'm pretty much the same as a lot of other 15 year old girls. I like to read, listen to music, write and draw. I obsess over stuff, and I started getting into anime a couple of months ago, but I've been reading manga for longer.
I'm a bit of a perfectionist.
I hate starting new things after doing one thing like it for ages, which is why it's taken me so long to make a new blog.
I'm a semi-practising pagan still hunting for a path, but I hope that my religion won't get in the way of any potential friendships.
I can get annoyed easily and have mood swings like a lot of people.
I will be self-publishing my first novel soon, though I wish I had longer to perfect it.
If I haven't scared off any new readers yet, then hi. I'm Luci...no, wait. There's something I have to say.
On this blog, I will be calling myself by my real name. I am Sam. I'm not going to post stuff to try and impress people any more - nobody probably noticed on my old blog, but I was writing in a way that would make people think I was funny and cool. I'm not very funny and I'm not that cool.
I've decided to try and accept that. People may argue about both of those, but I would ask you not to. It's something I've decided for myself. And that's who I want to be now - myself. I've had realisations in little bursts about my personality and stuff.
(yes, this is going to be a looong post, so sit down comfortably)
First off. I'm not confident, I've just ceased to care what others think about me.
People judge me on my looks. This was proved when I went out dressed the most gothic I ever have been - short black&red ruffled lacy type skirt, fishnet tights, midriff showing, long sleeved top, eyeliner, lace up boots....I had so many dirty looks thrown my way it was a wonder I didn't need a shower afterwards. If I'd been wearing jeans and a shirt, people wouldn't have given me a second glance.
I don't care about this. I still want people to lable me though. Which is selfish and dumb. I want to dress in a way that people I think are cool will look at me and go 'that girl looks cool!'
I'm tired of that. I want to find out who I am and then just be that person. The people who matter will know and that's all that counts.
Another realisation - I am a very small person in the grand scheme of things.
Another - my problems may not be bigger or more horrible than someone elses but they still matter to me.
And another - I don't need to be any kind of famous to be happy. I don't need a hundered thousand page views on DeviantArt, I don't need thousands of reviewers on FanFiction or Fictionpress, I don't need a million subscribers on YouTube. Sure, I want them. It would be nice to have recognition. But I don't need them to be happy. I can be happy just doing my own little thing.
That's it for this post. I haven't blogged in so long that I have a least another two posts I want to do today.
So, hi to any new people, hello to old viewers.
Sam.
I never thought I'd do it - actually make a whole new blog for myself. I always said that I'd stay in the same place, leave all the new and old, good and bad together. Just so I could look back and see how much I'd changed. But I can't. I haven't been posting at all recently, though I've had plenty of oppurtunity to. Now that I am, I can feel how easy it is to do so.
Hi Levi, if you're reading this. So far you're the only person I've given the address to. Simply because I was checking your blog whilst I was making my new one.
I don't know what things'll be like here. Probably the same.
Oh yes, I also deleted my writing blog and the BOA one. Because I can't even update one blog, let alone three.
Well, this is a first post, and if anyone comes here then they might be reading this without ever having read the old blog, so, I guess I'll introduce myself for those people.
My pen name is Luci de Monica, my real name is Sam.
I'm fifteen
I'm female (omigod no way, right? No girls on the internet and all that)
I'm pretty much the same as a lot of other 15 year old girls. I like to read, listen to music, write and draw. I obsess over stuff, and I started getting into anime a couple of months ago, but I've been reading manga for longer.
I'm a bit of a perfectionist.
I hate starting new things after doing one thing like it for ages, which is why it's taken me so long to make a new blog.
I'm a semi-practising pagan still hunting for a path, but I hope that my religion won't get in the way of any potential friendships.
I can get annoyed easily and have mood swings like a lot of people.
I will be self-publishing my first novel soon, though I wish I had longer to perfect it.
If I haven't scared off any new readers yet, then hi. I'm Luci...no, wait. There's something I have to say.
On this blog, I will be calling myself by my real name. I am Sam. I'm not going to post stuff to try and impress people any more - nobody probably noticed on my old blog, but I was writing in a way that would make people think I was funny and cool. I'm not very funny and I'm not that cool.
I've decided to try and accept that. People may argue about both of those, but I would ask you not to. It's something I've decided for myself. And that's who I want to be now - myself. I've had realisations in little bursts about my personality and stuff.
(yes, this is going to be a looong post, so sit down comfortably)
First off. I'm not confident, I've just ceased to care what others think about me.
People judge me on my looks. This was proved when I went out dressed the most gothic I ever have been - short black&red ruffled lacy type skirt, fishnet tights, midriff showing, long sleeved top, eyeliner, lace up boots....I had so many dirty looks thrown my way it was a wonder I didn't need a shower afterwards. If I'd been wearing jeans and a shirt, people wouldn't have given me a second glance.
I don't care about this. I still want people to lable me though. Which is selfish and dumb. I want to dress in a way that people I think are cool will look at me and go 'that girl looks cool!'
I'm tired of that. I want to find out who I am and then just be that person. The people who matter will know and that's all that counts.
Another realisation - I am a very small person in the grand scheme of things.
Another - my problems may not be bigger or more horrible than someone elses but they still matter to me.
And another - I don't need to be any kind of famous to be happy. I don't need a hundered thousand page views on DeviantArt, I don't need thousands of reviewers on FanFiction or Fictionpress, I don't need a million subscribers on YouTube. Sure, I want them. It would be nice to have recognition. But I don't need them to be happy. I can be happy just doing my own little thing.
That's it for this post. I haven't blogged in so long that I have a least another two posts I want to do today.
So, hi to any new people, hello to old viewers.
Sam.
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